Saturday, August 31, 2013

Almost Done

This post will finish, up to the current situation. At this point, she is sleeping with our daughter. She has also taken her rings off even though we are still married. I guess that makes it easier to do whatever she does. No rings and she's not married I guess. Whatever. I still have mine on and will honor my wedding vows until papers are signed. At least one of us has been faithful to the other throughout. I commend her on staying here until i get another job. Of course that is prob the only decent thing she has done for me in quite some time. I am in the process of trying to get some help with the house payments until I start getting money coming in again because unemployment will barely cover the mortgage payment. If I can get the payment deferral program to work for me, this shit will be over much sooner. 
 So we are back to me being uninvited to birthday parties that my daughter is invited to. These parties must be all about Jennifer because she gets extremely shitty with me when I ask if I am going. Last time she did nothing but cuss and scream at me for asking. For all I know she had her boyfriend meeting her there. Why would she get so pissed just because I asked. After they are there, she tells me I wasn't missing anything and how she told me I could go. Yeah after getting cussed and ridiculed I really wanted to be around her. 
 So there was another birthday today and there was not one mention of me going even though these were supposed to be OUR friends. She has talked so much shit about me to people that I am pretty sure they are HER friends now. The sad thing is, the guy was a good friend of mine and we worked out together for quite some time. Over the course of our friendship, things were said and talked about between he and I and with us splitting up......no telling what those three have done together or are planning to do together.......put 2 and 2 together for those that are reading. I won't mention names at the moment. 
 Another sick thought.......the other day my little girl was looking for keys to her diary in her bed. I was helping her and happened upon a certain little "toy" tucked in Jennifers' pillow. I didn't say anything about it but just left it there. A week or so later, my little one was getting ready for bed. She wanted to lay on her mommy's pillow. I had only assumed the "toy" had been moved but, yeah not so much. She said, "there is something hard under mommy's pillow. Bottom line, I took care of it without her seeing anything. Told her it was something of mommy's. I confronted her with this and she said it had been there for months. Not the point.

This is directed at you Jennifer........Look up Histrionic Personality Disorder and also the symptoms of a Sociopath.......both are you. I would know.
 Some people reading this won't see it because they are under her manipulative ways and others are enabling her by talking shit to her via "sexting." Whatever though.....no longer my problem.
I have cried my last tear over this whole situation. I have been nothing but faithful to her since day 1. I have never given her any reason to think that i was anything but HER HUSBAND. I loved her like no other thru thick and thin. I supported her while she was in school and helped her every way i could when she was ready to give up. Bottom line......I have always been there and nothing but true and faithful to her. I only asked her from the beginning that if there ever was anyone else......leave me. Don't cheat on me or lie to me about it. I said I would do the same. What did I do to deserve to be put thru the shit I was put thru? Yes i could have said "fuck it" long ago but wanted nothing more than to keep us together and happy. After the first couple of years of the bullshit.....I was an angry person. I believe I had every right to be. No matter what I said or asked of her regarding her actions.....I pretty much got a middle finger to the face because she was "doing nothing wrong."
Nothing wrong.......look at us now. She still does not see that I became the person I was and partially still am now because of what she did. She did nothing but blame me from the beginning. The way she portrays it.......not her fault because of what she did....it's my fault because I checked her phone and busted her. Complete denial of any wrong doing but points the blame at me. BS.
 Oh there is one thing I did. It was nothing more than me bullshitting around on my computer one night. My mother was trying to get the "find my ipad" option to work on her ipad one night. We tried to figure it out but never could get it to work. I was home one night waiting for Jennifer to get home. I tried it again to see if it worked but used Jennifers phone. I looked it up and it actually worked....she was driving into the subdivision when i logged it in. I walked upstairs just as she was pulling up and never thought another thing about it. She came downstairs to get something out of the freezer and I forgot to close the program down. So, i made a mistake of looking at that and now because of that, I have been accused of GPS tracking her since we got our iphones. YES I am sure she has told a  number of people about this and for those reading and have been told.......you now know the REAL story. But, believe what you want.
So leaving this post, there will be one more. The next one will reveal some "information" i was told by Jennifer. Come back and read because you will be quite surprised at some of the reading material........
 Anyone know what Tax Evasion is...........this and soooo much more.......

Friday, August 30, 2013

Almost The Final Post

A short time after the last "incident", I was told "this should make you happy.....they are thinking about either moving Todd to the tool shop or getting rid of him." Like that would stop the bullshit between them from happening regardless......
 Of course she was asked what her opinion was.........amazingly, they all of a sudden decided to give him another chance..........yeah just like they did with Mike. Guess that was another park meeting.......

I was let go from the job I took when I left Beach only being told they cancelled the contracts. Unfortunately it was a temp to hire job and the agency tried to call and get some clarification but never got a return call. SCREW THEM!!!
 Got another job only a few weeks after at a place that was 5 minutes from home. It was awesome and paid well. I say "was" because well, yet again they ran out of work and had to let me go again. About 2 weeks before this happened, I was told of a story of how "someone" put a pink bottle of pepper spray on her desk. A "random act of kindness" is the BS I was fed. I asked if she found out who did it and she said she asked around and no one admitted to it.......yeah ok. I didn't say much else but in my mind I know how she is and she wouldn't have stopped until she knew who it was.
 Later that night she got in the shower. A few days before I happened to see her unlock pattern on her phone. Didn't think much of it until tonight. I checked her phone and.......there was the proof. It was only a number but the text message said it all. it was a guy and whoever the chickenshit was made some comment about how they were comfortable with their manhood because they even bought a pink one. She made a comment about "oh so you really do like me." The return was something about "there is something that starts with an L and ends with an E." Then some nonsense about how they were looking over, What appeared to be their significant others shoulder, as she was looking up something on facebook. The chickenshit made some comment about how "jamie" knows that you (jennifer) are the only competition at the company. Now get this.....at the end of the text, they were passing I LOVE YOU to each other. There was some other little giddy bullshit between them but the end said it all. How am I supposed to feel at this point? Can someone tell me that any other sane person would have been OK with seeing that and not freaked out? Keep in mind anyone reading and "thinks" she is your friend......manipulation is most likely what she has done to get your trust.
 This is to you asshole.....are you really comfortable with your manhood? Come face me and tell me who you are........quite sure you already know where I live so please.....bring your low-life, chickenshit, sniveling fucking weasel, no back bone having ass over here and admit who you are!! Even if you don't, I already have a good idea who you are. I will find out. You might want to ask around and find out just how big my family is so figuring out who you are is just a matter of time.
 So, I asked her again about the pepper spray and she could tell I was upset at that point. She went on some tangent about how she was so upset because I didn't believe her. Not sure what kept me from turning into an atomic bomb at that point. I had the phone number and was on a mission to find out who it was. I tried to call making the number private but no answer. 
 This is priceless.......I get a text from her later the next day while I was at work telling me it was one of the girls in document control that gave her the spray and I could stop freaking out about it. OK, that morning, I checked her phone again and the little love text was gone. The night before when we argued, my opinion, she deleted it in case there was some way I would have been able to see the message. Not to mention, after we somewhat finished arguing about this, I went downstairs to get away from it. She came down and asked me when I became so cold? Keep in mind everything above in the green is still on my mind. I wanted to tell her "the same time I found out you are telling another male that you love them." I didn't. She said that people who care about each other would work these things out. People who care about each other..............WTF!!! I mustered up enough strength to act like I was sorry and calmed the situation down.
 So after the BS text about a girl giving her the spray, I said OK. The following day after lunch i started getting texts from her about some messages she left on her phone for me. After the love message, I didn't need to look any more........the obvious had presented itself. She then went into accusing me of having someone at Beach checking up on her when she went to lunch every day. WOW........they get busted and just as every other time, it gets turned around to be MY fault. This went on for a couple days.
 That Thursday, I was let go from my job for lack of work. What a great fucking way to end the week.
 Saturday morning the arguing about the messages started again. I said something about it to her and she came off with some shit that I made a comment that was exactly in those messages. Not even going to get into that because she was looking for every possible way to make it look like I seen them. Either way, she told me that as soon as I get a new job she is leaving and we are getting divorced.
 Honestly, I had already decided that when I seen "I LOVE YOU"
As I am sure you are reading this Jennifer, yes i looked at your phone but not what you think I saw. I seen the real you in the text with the CHICKENSHIT SPINELESS ASSHOLE!
Last post coming soon.......

Wednesday, August 28, 2013

Resparking old drama

This post is named this because after Mike quit, it appeared she was back to the same shit with Todd. Hell, who knows, it probably never stopped. Even though he had a girlfriend but I am quite sure she didn't know about any of the garbage they were doing. Read some of the earlier posts if you have forgotten.
 We went on vacation in July and everything was good. About 2 weeks after that we did the Color Run in Louisville. The following Friday, as I came into the lab, there she was again at Todds desk. It was back to the old shit that we fought about early on. I said something to her about it. She didn't really say much about it.The next day, Saturday, i was going to help a friend do some painting. She had gotten back from the gym and I noticed her rings were off of her hand. I asked why and it was some story of how she always takes them off at the gym. I asked if she was going to leave them in the cupholder of the van and she got pissed about it. I knew something was up. She proceeded to tell me it was over because I made the comment about her and Todd the day before.
 We went on like that until October or November. Co-existing in the house and not much more. I did, however, find out that she had become really good friends with Randy Richie. He had been there less than a month and had already been called an ASSHOLE by my spouse because of the way he talked to her. YES, those were her exact words. "If he knew who i was, he would have never talked to me that way." Attitude and arrogance like that made me think of the one person I never liked that worked there......Jim Blanton. Yet shortly after, they were texting each other all day for quite some time. Of course when I asked about it, another lie to my face. So Randy is yet another low life prick who got manipulated into believing I was the bad guy. So she got an apartment and she and our daughter moved out for a "trial" separation. In the meantime, I got a used car and room mates and even got my child support lowered to help cover the bills. 
 This is a little more than what most want to know but, less than a month after the move, I was getting invited over to "sleep over." Use your imagination and come to your own conclusions. I had gotten a new job and left Beach. LITERALLY less than a week after I was gone, my stress level went from almost unbearable to almost none. That is how bad i think we were smothering each other. Not to mention i had to be there and witness her actions.
 By March of 2013, she was staying back at home more than the apartment. The last week of April I believe, we were moving her back home. We were getting along awesome and rarely fought about anything. It appeared that things were getting better. APPEARED.....
One afternoon, I got a phone call while at some friends house. I didn't see the call until the following day and it came through as PRIVATE. There was also a voice message left. I listened to the voice mail.
 Before I get into all that.......some time before that call, I was told that a certain ADMIN person did not care for MIKE STEPP and was going to fire him. At that time I had already thought to myself that if my spouse had anything to do with it, he wouldn't get canned. So, the voice mail. I did not recognize the voice, and even let Jennifer hear it as well. Before I let her hear it, I asked the question......"When did you meet Mike Stepp at a park during lunch?" I got the usual dumbfounded look and "what are you talking about?" Whoever it was, and I hope you are reading this as well, tells me that they seen her and Mike at the park one afternoon during lunch and she was in his car." Yeah after she heard it, then she decides she will tell me. First, she denies being in his car and then informs me that she met him up there to let him know what was going on with certain people wanting to fire him. Also that she was in the interview process of the candidates to take his place. 
 Why....was my question. It is none of your business if they want to fire someone. If ADMIN finds out, this could get you in serious trouble. OOPS!!! Yep, here is another one you didn't know about Mary.

More yet still.......

How convenient.....

The next issue that came about with Mike.
 She tells me one afternoon that there is a Customer Meeting she has to go to regarding a certification and then a training class after that. All within about 3 weeks. The part I wasn't real happy about is that she was gonna be going with Mike Stepp to the customer meeting. After the shit he pulled and her asking questions that had nothing to do with her. they are going out of town overnight. Whatever. Yeah that put me sooo much at ease especially because she blamed him for nothing in regards to what happened around Christmas. Which, I guess, she should never have asked him the questions she did and then continue to dig when he didn't answer.
 So after that trip was done, it was now time for the next trip. 4 days but this time alone. She took my laptop to use for the class. YES, I put a key logger program on there because I already knew what was going to be happening. This way I would have proof. Was it wrong of me to do that.......who's to say. In my mind I had every right to be concerned. When she got back home, I waited a few days to check the laptop in case she had an idea I put the program on it. Typical work stuff mainly but, as expected, some interesting emails between her and Mike Stepp. These are the ones i still have screen copies of for proof. There was a message she sent asking for some form and he sent it to her and she said "you are too good to me." His response was something along the lines of "anything for you." Then she was telling him of some sexual comment she made to me and I didn't respond the way she expected. She told him she wouldn't do that anymore. He responded, "yeah she's (mary) like that too. Every time i am in a good mood she has something negative to say. Her name should be Miss Buzz Killington." Would have to read it again but he said something to her and she responded, "stop it your making me want to be back there." Then she said "there is something I miss but I left it back there." (meaning home or just back in town....not real sure). He goes on to talk about how they needed to schedule some more supplier audits together and she replied, "yeah there is a lot I can teach you..........about auditing."
 Appears that is all she has on her mind.........some sexual innuendo seems to be in every conversation. There were some other things said between them but, like I said, would have to go back and read thru them again. So do I trust them together at this point.....uhhh NO!
 Sorry Mary if your reading this. It is what it is and I am not keeping quiet any longer. It's obvious he kept this from you. 
Some time after that, he put in his notice and quit. I do know he was asking my spouse to send him some quality documentation to use at the new job he had. From what I gathered, she was having Robert Leach help her get the stuff sent to him. Not sure if it ever happened. Yeeeaaahhhhh sorry Robert. I am aware that you had no problem going to her about me for anything I said when I was in the lab. Sorry you fell prey to her manipulative ways as well. I have seen some of your interesting conversations with her too. Try not to let your wife in on that. See.......she is ruining peoples lives as much as all the guys and girl she has let ruin mine.
 Still more to read.........

Tuesday, August 27, 2013

More drama

 A week or so after the last issue, her girlfriend told her she wanted nothing else to do with either one of us. No love loss here... She told my spouse she didn't feel she could trust her any longer. She was afraid her significant other was going to find out. See.....and back when "it" happened, I told her she needed to tell her I knew........don't listen to me.
So, then, now get this, it was MY fault that they were no longer friends. All I did was tell the truth. I was the one that made her aware I knew. I was not the one that crossed that line and cheated. Oh, yeah, I was told at one point that it wasn't cheating because it was a girl....WTF!! As I said before.......I am no angel and never tried to act like I was. If I had known and agreed to what she did........little different scenario. Not gonna get back into that part of the story again.
 So now, her "friend" wasn't speaking to her and she was pissed at me for it. As always.....my fault. A week or so went by and she called me from work on a Saturday. Came at me with both barrels over her "friend." Again how it was all my fault that they weren't speaking any longer. Then demanding that I call around and try to find her a car. Back then, her credit and mine as well was less than appealing. I asked how the hell she expects me to play nice after the cussing and making me feel like an ingrate. She told me I will play nice because I needed her money to be able to keep the house. OK so that was no more than a threat......make your own assumptions on that. I called a few places and got the same response from them all.......everything was based on credit. That ended that for the moment. I ended up borrowing my dads truck for a while to give us some space. Even though we both work at the same place and TECHNICALLY had to be there and clocked in at the same time. Boy does she abuse that privilege. Went to pick her up from work and she dropped me back off at home and left with our daughter. About 3 hours later she came home and was fine. Yikes! 
 About 3 weeks or so later, they were coming in for the 1:30 meeting in the lab. Someone asked her where she went. She told them she had to stop and get a sucker. About 15 minutes later I look up at her and she has gum in her mouth AND the sucker. She had made the comment several times how gross and nasty it was to chew gum and have a sucker at the same time......really? So after talking to her later at home, one of the account managers, that was required to be at these meetings, told her he would go to the meeting if she would put a sucker in her mouth while the meeting was going on.......WHAT!!!!!!!! Does anyone else see the issue here? Can't be that naive or stupid to not see what that was all about. Actually, I am pretty sure she knew exactly what she was doing even though she acted oblivious when I said something. Hey look, one more guy that wanted something and she was more than happy to oblige...........attention attention attention.......
 Let's not look at the fact that it was degrading to her (not that she cared) and disrespectful to me.......my god I was in the fucking room seeing this bullshit. Whatever......

Monday, August 26, 2013

Next Jackass

What a fool for not leaving after the cheating. I went thru the same type shit with my first wife. But it's hard to just say FUCK IT after 10 years of marriage......well at least for me. 
A couple weeks into December of 2011, we are getting ready for work one morning. My daughter got my spouses Kindle and was messing with it. I took it away from her because I didn't want her to accidentally drop it. When i got it, there was a chat going on using Facebook chat. It was with yet another guy that worked at Beach. MIKE STEPP (sorry Mary if you're reading this).
 Last thing in the conversation was something like this......

(Mike) "if and when I feel comfortable enough I will give you an answer. You wanted an answer today so I gave you one."

At this point I was beyond ready to explode on someone. Got to work and waited for him to get there. As soon as he showed up, he and I went to the other side of the plant where it was quiet and somewhat secluded and I asked what the fuck was going on. From what I got out of the conversation, He was complaining about not getting laid. My spouse took it upon herself to ask if he had ever messed around on his girlfriend. First of all......none of her fucking business. She wouldn't let it go because he wouldn't answer her. Not sure what was said.....and prob never will. I told him he needed to find out why she asked him that. He texted me later and said she was just curious. OK that seemed a little too deep of a question to be "just curious." I told him he needed to straight ask her why she was so curious and why she asked the question.
 He sent me a text just before lunch and told me that she was asking him if he wanted to have an affair. He said he told her NO and he was happy where he was. OK so male or female reading this.........how the fuck would you take this?!
 I went to her desk and gave her my ring. Told her "Mike just told me everything about your conversation and asking him about an affair......if that's what you want we are fucking done."
I even showed her the texts. She told me that I was having him to solicit sex to her!! WTF!!!!
 She confronted him with me and he denied it all. The texts were right there on my phone and he still told her he never said any of that. She seen the texts and still called me a liar. That night at home she started packing her clothes and our daughters. while she was packing we were arguing and I finally had enough. I called her girlfriend and told her that I knew what they did. Well of course they both denied it. Bottom line, I told her when i found out that she needed to tell her little girlfriend that I knew about it.....she never would. 
 I told her I was going to expose her for everything if she took my daughter from me. She left and soon after, I had her phone shut off. This was my "don't give a shit how far you fall now" attitude. With everything else, pretty sure I had every right to act that way. She called me about 30 minutes later asking how much damage I had done. I told her "nothing" for now. She came back home and we didn't speak for almost a week. I slept on the couch for a few days. We finally started to talk and decided to take it slow and try to fix it....again. Christmas Eve we were back to somewhat good. 
 Thanks MIKE for being yet someone else that couldn't tell the truth. Mary there is more with these 2 so keep reading............I even have screen shots of the emails they were sending if you want proof.........

Sidestep

 I called this post Sidestep because I will pull away from the main story for just a moment to vent and set some things straight.
 I want to make something clear.......I am well aware of the way I was portrayed when I worked there. I am aware that I was called a controlling asshole. I was made aware that it was told I was controlling, didn't want "her" talking to anyone and wouldn't let her go anywhere by herself and I watched her every move when I was there. Because she has everyone believing everything she says and manipulates people so they will believe her, that is exactly how people seen me. Human nature I guess. 
 Not sure I know anyone that would have put up with as much shit as I have or handled the stress any better. I was constantly told that people always thought I was in a bad mood because the way I looked. If they only knew. Not sure how many times I was told that people would ask my spouse, yes my spouse, what was wrong with me. Including admin on more than one occasion
Why not come ask me? There was absolutely no reason she needed to be asked that question. Depending on who asked, I am sure they got some fucked up response that was nothing more than me being degraded without any way of defending myself. Some of the questions were asked because of some of the posts I put on Facebook. People reading waaaay to deep into what I would post. So again, why not just come face to face and ask me what was wrong?
 No instead, they go by what they were told and went on believing they already knew what was wrong. I know that I looked pissed off a lot. A big part of that was....it was just the way I looked. My son carries the same pissed off look all the time. 
 If you can't come ask me or get to know me, don't judge me. I can't control what is said about me but I could have just as easily remedied the truth by someone taking the time to came talk to me or ask. Granted I wouldn't have said anything like what is being put in here as I couldn't afford to get fired. But at least people would have gotten to know ME instead of the garbage that was being said about me. Hopefully after this is said and done, people will realize there were hidden reasons and unduly amounts of stress that controlled my life.
 With that out of the way.......back to some more TRUE stories.